Definition

I have been happy. I have been busy. But I have been missing you. It's amazing how many days have passed since I last posted on my blog. Not fair, and not real.

Anyway, lots have happened in my life in the last 3 months. Got married, moved to a new country, set up my home, started cooking and even started consulting before I join a firm full time next year. So much happened, so many words got lost before they could be typed on this keyboard. Nevertheless, never too late.

I am working on a Job Analysis project. Part of it is defining the job or position of employees. As I was doing my work it occured that why has definition been so important. As a kid no subject went without the much necessary, "Define this and Define that". How numbers on the report card soared by defining someone else's point of view of a thing/concept verbatim. Weird but, atleast someone took the trouble of defining something so we could mug and puke in our answer paper.

Then another thought came, I have defined gravity, solar system, milky way and at work every damned position of 1500+ employees but when did I last defined myself. Hey, we do this dont we? We define our job, our boss, our relationship,our friendship but when do we define our own self. And even if we try, how can we define ourselves?

Am I the job I do, or the relationship I am in, or the adjectives I believe I associate with myself or the body I live in. Complicated. I tried many version of defining myself. Some read like a matrimonial advertisement and some like bhojpuri film poster. 

End result, There never was and never will be a need to divide myself into segments of description. I do not want to be restrict my personality in the crossword of words that attempt to define me.
When you define a person into few words you cease to see him in totality.The perspective becomes the person and the person is lost.


I am a cell, that multiplies and die everyday. I am a soul that evolves. I am an experience that multiplies manifold. I am a fleeting thought, a past , a present a future.. I need no definition as I am not today what I shall be tomorrow. I am the change.

Modified Version,

M

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